Is CA(SA) Worth It?

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It was the silent killer of pretty much all undergrad students other than obviously the bank account and the pocket, that one's probably close number two - but it was simply that I did not know why I was doing this course.

It was the silent killer of pretty much all undergrad students other than obviously the bank account and the pocket, that one's probably close number two - but it was simply that I did not know why I was doing this course.

It's that simple, it's the craziest thing and that's why a lot of us come here to tertiary education. You know it is not a bad place to find yourself. We come in and we try to ourselves. It is like our way to buy an identity.

I remember this one dude Jordan B. Peterson said that University is this beautiful, this lovely place where you can rent an identity, you pay your tuition to tell people who you are. Because like saying what you do is sort of telling people, who are you.

It's like, I'm an engineer, I am a lawyer, an accountant, a student. So it's our nice convenient way of buying our identity. But really, like, we just oftentimes don't know why we bought this identity, why are we here?

And just to kind of let you in on my journey. So when I came to Varsity, you know, wide -eyed, hopeful, I cam here, yeah, oh, he's writing your to -do list. No, your goal list, first year you're saying, because you came from a trick, flying, came with all these distinctions, because yeah obviously a content student has got distinctions came with distinctions and he said maybe i'll get uh you know like they say they said that in varsity your marks drop so you know i'd be willing to take like 70 you used to be an 80 student so uh maybe 70 75 or like yeah i just be i be I'll be humble i i say i'm gonna get 70 man then reality hits um it was covid year when we joined so it was even tougher you know no real like live one -on -one accountability so hey man I was coasting I was costing like many of us do you you pass and then your standards they drop from first year it's that's where they you know they they weed out the weak but still even if you are quote -unquote strong your standard have considerably dropped so I coasted through first -year you know, not really gaining or seeking understanding, but just seeking to pass.

And then I got to second year, the same happened. It was a little bit more tumultuous stuff happened then, but nonetheless, still not a coasting situation. And I get to third year. Third year is where they say, ah, now if you don't get it chief, now, if don get, sorry, we can't let you through, especially if want to go to CTA, they really raised the bar.

So, it was that coasting throughout that led me to my eventual failing, but was it really coast in? Was that it? That sounds like the surface. When I look back, It comes down to not really knowing why I'm here.

If I think back to all the times where I did do decent, or if you can think better sometimes where you did decently maybe well rather decent is fairly capable even if you don't know why you're doing what you doing but every time you sort of had the goal and you knew why you were there because the go was driving you towards you know coming every day pitching up doing the studying doing the work and then you achieve the thing i didn't have that my my father just told me to do accounting and so that's what I did and it was a real.

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